NOBODY BETTER DIE ON MY BIRTHDAY GOD DAMMNIT

You know, not for nothing....this country cannot be fixed over night. Yet, that is exactly what everyone expects from Obama.

One man cannot fix in 3 months what George Bush did to this country for 8 years. So sorry, if Obama has to go on every talk show and interrupt everyone's precious TV show lineup then so be it. It's bad enough everyone has such an attitude ABOUT him being president, now they have to bitch about the time it takes him to do everything.

Now I don't feel like fighting with everyone and anyone about this post. This is how I feel, just like how everyone else has their own thoughts about this situation.

R.I.P. Eartha Kitt....

01. Name a movie that you have seen more than 10 times. Star Wars, The Color Purple, Sixteen Candles, Weird Science, and s shit ton of others
02. Name a movie that you’ve seen multiple times in the theater. Star Wars Revenge of the Sith
03. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to see a movie. Joaquin Phoenix, Jake Gyllenhaal, Ryan Phillipe, Tom Hanks, Topher Grace
04. Name an actor that would make you less likely to see a movie. Seth Green, Dane Cook
05. Name a movie that you can quote from. Half Baked, Star Wars, Grease
06. Name a movie musical that you know all the lyrics to all the songs. Grease, most of Crybaby
07. Name a movie that you have been known to sing along with. Grease, Crybaby, The Color Purple
08. Name a movie that you would recommend everyone see. The Color Purple
09. Name a movie that you own. The Departed
10. Name an actor that launched his/her entertainment career in another medium but who has surprised you with his/her acting chops. Mark Walhberg, Will Smith
11. Have you ever seen a movie in a drive-in? Nope
12. Ever made out in a movie? No, but I felt someone up lol
13. Name a movie that you keep meaning to see but just haven’t gotten around to it. E.T., and a bunch of others
14. Ever walked out of a movie? I don't think so...
15. Name a movie that made you cry in the theater. None...
16. Popcorn? Hell yeah
17. How often do you go to the movies (as opposed to renting them or watching them at home)? Maybe once or twice a year
18. What’s the last movie you saw in the theater? Kung Fu Panda
19. What’s your favorite/preferred genre of movie? Comedy
20. What’s the first movie you remember seeing in the theater? Snow White (LOL)
21. What movie do you wish you had never seen? The Blair Witch Project. SOO stupid
22. What is the weirdest movie you enjoyed? Half Baked
23. What is the scariest movie you’ve seen? The Ring..very creepy
24. What is the funniest movie you’ve seen? The 40 Year Old Virgin

Since I can't comment on your posts....( Read more... )

I made a promise to myself that I wasn't going to make any posts about anything political this time around. Because no matter how you try to word anything, someone always takes what you say wrong, and then friendships suffer etc.

But after tonight, I got something to say.  ( Read more... )

HAHHHAHAHAHA

Kevin got a letter today from the prosecutor's office.

Claiming he owes $32000 in child support to me.



HAHAHAHAHAHAH how do I make font bigger??

HA HA HA!!!
So....my modification is finally in the works.  TO be honest??  I didn't ask for back support.  I only asked for a modification and for medical insurance.  But this??  Is nice.  Seeing as how the other woman gets $114 a week for ONE child, that is not even a baby anymore.

GIVE ME WHAT I AM OWED!!!  I LOVE IT.

I realized tonight something very important.

I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. It's something I am dealing with, not so well.
I have done everything in my power to try to hold on to people, and it is very obvious that they no longer wish to be held onto or even associated with me. I am having a really hard time with it; I really try to be the person I think everyone wants me to be; obviously it isn't working or I'd be happy. I haven't been happy in a very long time.

So tonight I let it all go. If you don't see me for a while, don't be alarmed. I have to figure things out.

And NOW??

I think his whore and daughter have a Myspace, I think I found it and now I am even more pissed off than I was before.

All the rage I felt when I found out about this kid??? Is coming back.

I don't even want to see him ever again. Right now, I could care less if he falls off the face of the earth.

How is it possible to cause so much pain and grief and heartache for one person? When do you finally stop hurting someone??

Why do I let myself get hurt?? Why do I open myself up like this, to anyone?? Why can't I find a guy willing to accept me for how I am, how I look, the fact that I have two kids...

...better yet. Why can't I LET HIM GO?

Let's talk for a minute about the Child Support system.

Now I don't know about where YOU live, but in the state of Connecticut, where I have had an order of child support since Shawn was 2, they cut into the FIRST mother's child support to give it to the SECOND mother. You know, the girl that Kevin fucked around on me with and got pregnant??

Yeah, so my measly $53 a week has been cut back to $45 for four weeks, and then $36 another week.

Topping that, she receives $70 a week for her child. SEVENTY FUCKING DOLLARS.

I raise TWO of his children, ones he knew about from day fucking one, because I never lied to him.

This bitch "supposedly" never told him anything and just went for child support and GOT it. That's how we "found out" he had another kid.

I am at my wits end. I have been dealing with him for fucking 14 years, and it hurts worse everytime I find out something new. TWO KIDS. $53 a week, and some slut gets knocked up and gets a shit ton.

He told me she was only getting insurance, and I find out NOW that she gets all this money. Cutting into MY money to make sure HERS is paid. I am the fucking first custodial parent, but the state database has HER listed. I swear to Jesus on all that is holy I BETTER get his income tax refund. That mother fucker owes me over $10,000 in back child support. Why in the fuck is this bitch getting MY money??

I filed a motion to modify last August, and by damn something should have been done by now.

I want to find this girl, and fucking beat her fucking ass. It is one thing to fuck with me, but don't you DARE take what is owed to my kids.

Well.

My mom gave me the computer after all.

Said she didn't wanna take it out there, she wouldn't know how to hook it up, etc.

SO here I am, back.  I feel like such a liar, telling everyone I would be gone for a month.  Giggle.

SO, Monday was DEVASTATING.  I really thought it would be easy to let my mom go, but I was bawling like a baby all damn day.  I was at the bank at work, blubbering like an idiot.

It was just hard knowing that the woman who had always only been at the most a few miles away from me was GONE.

Liberating, but sad as well.

On the other hand?  Loving this house and the freedom.  It feels AWESOME.

OK I am officially without and internet source until February.

Love you all, miss you all, the new house is wonderful.

Hey!!!

I am dipping in from time to time...I just can't stay away from you guys!

The move went surprisingly well....things are great and I cannot complain.

Except that I have no internets. =-(

On that note, MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone, you are all in my thoughts.

Especially you Kakes, I miss you the most.  Sorry guys, she's just my freaking soulmate.

BTW, having your own house?  RAWKS.

Also, we are rocking out daily to Guitar Hero III for PS2.....it's all good.  I am sick of watching the same movies over and over due to NO CABLE UNTIL the 3RD.

ATTENTION

To any of you that I may have your addresses, you may be receiving a silly post card thing from Brandon.  It's a school fundraiser, you are in no way required to purchase anything, he just has to fill up the booklet thing with addresses.  if you would LIKE to leave your address just to help this sexy little beast get a free prize, comments will be screened.

That is all.